Monday, December 5, 2011


I am so thankful.  Which, by the way, I have been thankful for 6 years.  Why? You ask.  Well, on Decemeber 28, 2005 our lives changed and fast.  Wayne had been let go from his job that he had been working since 1998.  Wayne's plans were to retire with this company.  We build our house based on that income and for 6 years have never returned to it.  So, God has stretched us and began to mold us.  We have learned to trust him with everything.  When I say everything, I do mean everything.  For instance, trusting him to provide us the basics: Food, Shelter, Clothing...He has done that, and well! God has humbled our hearts in many areas.  One would be careers.  Being a maintenance man for a church is tough stuff, especially when you didn't realize how dirty people really are! God has also taken our worldly blinders off, so we can see him. This is a big area for me.  I didn't realize that I could create idols in my life.  I was working so hard to live a Godly life, and then bang Wayne was almost killed.  On December 1, 2010, as I sat at Grady Hospital, helpless, but alert of the Lord, I realized that I had placed Wayne on a pedestal higher than God.  I cried out right then, as I was by myself with a few innocent by standers, "Lord, have made him higher than you?  Forgive me, Lord.  You are my master and my leader."  That week was the hardest for us all.  I also realized that I had placed our Homeschooling Adventure in my own leadership.  Yes, humble.  We have experienced that word.  I believe that the Lord has allowed us to go through this 6 years to allow us to be true Christians.  We know have both began seeing the things He has for us.  For example, tithing used to be a "thing" with Wayne, but no longer.  He knows that we owe everything we have to the Lord.  I am finding small things to be thankful for everyday.  Even though my health is down and I ache most of the time, I am thankful for those moments that I am not hurting and the small things I can do.  I am thankful for the man that God has placed in my life.  I am so blessed to have a husband that truely loves me and I him.  I pray that we continue to have a wonderful relationship with each other and enjoy one another.  I am blessed to have such wonderful parents that care for all of us and want the best for us.  I am blessed with children who love one another and care for the well being of Wayne and I.

Lord, you are our healer and master.  I praise you.  Thank you for everything I don't have and everything I do.  You have never forsaken me.  You always keep us safe.  Please show favor my husband and allow him to succeed with his career.  Open our hearts to hear your words, see through your eyes, and love like you.  As a time of reflection, Lord, I just sit here and reflect the Love you have shown me.  I couldn't imagine my life without you.  Please fill my whole family's hearts with Joy, Peace, Love, Respect, and Honor.  Thank you, Father.  In Jesus' name.  Amen

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