Tuesday, October 16, 2012

The Power of Ugly

 Some friends and I have reading through a book called "The Power of Ugly".   This week we were talking about "The Ugly Jesus".  It is not blasphemy, I promise (you would have to read the book).  But in the chapter, it talks about the ugly conception, the ugly birth, and the ugly death of Jesus.  How He lived such a lowly life, so ordinary.  He came here not as a king with worldly riches, but as a baby.  A baby that had to be cared for and nurtured, one that was vulnerable to mankind.  The author takes us back to the movie "The Passion of the Christ".  He writes about different things, but what stands out the most to me in that movie is when Jesus is being beaten beyond recognition.  Satan comes in the crowd as the form of an infant.  He distorts something so beautiful and mocks quietly into Jesus' mind, just as he does me daily: "Your not good enough", "You'll never please Him", "You'll never go through with it".  All the while, Jesus in his misery and pain continues to press on.  If saying..."I have already won.  I am victorious and you may not have any of them".  Wow! How amazing that I could never love someone to sacrifice everything I am and have, but He sacrificed all this for ME.  We always think of this towards mankind, but tonight I am dwelling on the peace that it was for ME!

On my ride home tonight, I just felt like the Lord wanted me to declare something publicly. I never had sister(s) with my biological family, but God has placed some truly special women in my life to give me a sense of sisterhood. Thank you God for Joe Heidi Tritt.  Lord she gives of herself to our family all the time. She is my oldest sister whom watches over me and loves me unconditionally. Thank you Lord for giving her hope to not only a future with her family, but with mine. Surgery is ugly and is not really wanted, but a good friend told me that those are just scars and reminders of who we are in Christ. Our trials set us apart. We live in victory because of Christ. Praise God that the report is 90% no cancer! Praise God that my daughter, who at the age of 7 didn't want surgery either, but can live to say that God was with us and still is today. She, too, has ugly scars that remind her (and will remind her for the rest of her life) of the ugliness of this world. We live on 70% of no re-occurrence. 

My sister in law is another special one.  She is the little sister in my life.  I get to pray with her and share in life with her the intimate things that sisters share.  We can talk for hours and still call each other the next day and have something to talk about.  I have loved her since day one and continue to pray for God to reign in her life.  

There are so many that God uses for different parts of my sister needs:Faith Phillips (my other side of my brain, most days), Angela Thrasher (who we offer each other so much support to one another), April Anderson ( girl you are my strong leader, to you I look up to)... Thank you God for these women...I am truly a blessed one.

Lord, there are no words to describe what you have done for me to be saved.  I can never say Thank you enough.  But I lift my life to you and ask that I serve you with my whole heart for the rest of my life.  You are my rock, my foundation...You are never surprised by my circumstances or my response to the them.  Mold me and shape me into the wife, mother, daughter, friend, sister, teacher, etc. that will glorify your name and nothing else.  Place people in my life that will serve as models and firm guidance in my walk.  Help me to pray for my neighbors, my family, my community, my children, my husband in a way that pleases you and brings victory to their lives.  Thank you Lord for providing sisters in my life that understand me and love me for me.  Protect these relationships and keep them from the evil one.  You are my comforter, the Peace maker...In you I have hope and look forward to a successful future.  In Jesus' name, Amen.  

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