Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Today I am asking some prayer. I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis at 31, and now I am going to be 34 Friday. With that said, I have only gotten a diagnosis, so no medication or medical intervention has been taken on my part. Insurance is something that we normally just do not have, either Wayne has had his own business, the companies do not offer it, or we are waiting on it. In this season, we are going to be blessed/cursed (mixed feelings) with insurance in September. The prayers are for me. I know that insurance for emergencies and such is a huge blessing, but I have a hard time with long term medication. The medication may slow things down, which seem increasingly worsening, but their effects on the body are harsh. I am only 34 and the thought of having my kidneys failing and put on dialysis or my liver being destroyed is a tough call. We have been through a lot in the last 4-6 years, and I know that this is just another something to refine my spirit and trust in him. So, with this, I am asking for peace in what God wants to do with my body-not man or even myself-and for wisdom on how he wants me to go. I don't what others to tell me the benefits and non benefits of taking medication (trust me I have read and read, I know them ), I just want my savior to guide me, lead me, direct my paths...I want to be a servant that he is proud of and all things point to him in my life. I have had the privilege to see his mighty work in our lives first hand, and it is amazing. I trust his way, because his way is perfect for me. Thank you for lifting me up.
Lord, thank you for my life and the people in it. I ask that I can serve you all the days of my life. I continue to ask for your strength and peace in every situation. Today I ask that you will give me peace and direction in the way I should go with treatment. If you want ultimate healing, which I know that you can do-I've seen you do this for everyone that lives in this house, then heal me. Lord, Jesus, if you want me to walk a path of healing in a different way so that I can be of encouragement to others around me, then allow me to know without a shadow of a doubt that is your path for me. I pray that the anxieties of this day and time are not what I concern myself with, for you are with me. Give me, Lord, your words to show compassion and mercy to those around me. I want everything that I do to glorify you. You are my savior, Lord and master, my comforter, my healer, my provider, my everything. Lord I give this to you and all that it contains. In Jesus' holy name-Amen.